The Facts

	Duration: 02:13 minutes Upload Time: 07-09-22 07:27:48 User: johnofjordan :::: Favorites :::: Top Videos of Day
Description: I'm trying not to move it's just your ghost passing through - Putting The Damage On, Tori Amos Everything is double sided. The things that bring you the most pleasure in the world can also be the bearer of the greatest pain. I realise that now. Truthfully I have no idea what to do with such 'wisdom,' beyond commit it to blogform. I need to stop thinking. That is what I need more than anything. Because my thoughts are merciless. They are so pointed, so direct. And I cannot appease them. There is a weak little voice inside my head that says, "I don't know the answers." But a much louder one that can only speculate. It drives me crazy. It makes me feel worthless. It takes every action of every person who has ever encountered me to support its general premise. And in a funny, and perhaps poetic, way... it starts answering the questions with further questions. "Why don't they like you?" "Well why would they?" And all the positive self-talk in the world doesnt change the facts. You're not here with me. You're not here with me because you didn't want to be. Because you didn't love me. And beyond that... I have no idea.
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